April 4, 2009

I went to the ER today. Yesterday Sky had been climbing over me and I got these really bad cramps that were worse when I layed on my right side looking back on it. The had me in tears and curling into a ball. Anyway I still had cramping today and couldn't shake the feeling sometign was wrong so I went in. They gave me an U/S and the good news is there is one baby, the heart rate was at 172, and the baby measured a week farther then I thought I was. The bad new is there is a bleed and the placenta had ripped some, which I'm sure is what I felt yesterday. So now I'm on pelvic rest and bed rest. I see my Dr on Weds and find out then what he wants to do from here.

I still have really bad all day sickness though and I feel good about this pregnancy too so time will tell what will happen. I really just want a baby no matter what. I had someone ask me today what I would do if I had another boy and that seemed like the oddest question to me. I had no idea how to answer it other then to shrug and tell them we already lost a boy so it doesn't really matter to me. I don't even want to find out what we are having which everyone thinks is so weird. I just can't bring myself to hope for a girl when all I want is to finally have a healthy baby after everything I've been through.

Here's hoping I cna get my doppler to work soon so I can know that this little one is ok.