April 21, 2009

I went and saw my Dr yesterday and he's not as worried as I think he should be, but maybe he is just trying to keep me calm. Anyway, He doesn't want to do another ultrasound because there is nothing that can be done anyway and it will only make me worry more. So I go back for my normal appointment on May 4th and he told me I could go back 2 weeks after that for a heartbeat check if I need to and then 2 weeks after that will be the 20 week U/S!!! I can't believe I only have 6 weeks left until I'm there. It seems so far away and yet I'm sure it will go really fast as there is a lot of stuff between now and then.

Ok and now for the best part of this post (ok the rest is really good too but this is REALLY good!)


We can hear the heartbeat on my doppler now!!!! That means I can hear this little one whenever I want too!

Oh and we have a nickname too. We wanted something Halloweenish but we have been having a really hard time finding something that sounds right and will stick, but last night Chas and I decided to jsut call the baby Casper for now and this morning Bry agreed so the baby is now called Casper until he or she is born. =)

April 12, 2009

(typing one handed sorry)

I went to the er yesterday morning and gpt admitted by the er dreven though the obs made it very clear they didn't see the point to me being there.

Anyway, the bleeding in my uterus is worse and causing my so much pain. I couldn't move or even touch my stomach. The er dr wanted me to be watched because it is building up inside me and not coming out and the obs thought I should have been sent home and told to take tylenol and not even put on bed rest because I wasn't bleeding out. Well one of the obs told me that all they could do was give me pain pills (that weren't working for more then if I didn't move at all) or terminate the pregnancy. So because I wouldn't terminate I was sent home with pills. Never mind that they only way the pills worked at all was I was taking 2 every 3 1/2 to 4 hours and they only gave me 20 pills! Yea, I wonder how long those are going to last.

Stupid insensitive people. Oh and the ob told me that if the pain gets worse it means the bleeding is worse and will need to be checked. Well the pain got worse and so her solution was to deal or terminate. I don't understand why they can't just do something like an amnio and remove some of the blood to make it let up a little for a minute, but no. Either I deal or terminate.

April 4, 2009

I went to the ER today. Yesterday Sky had been climbing over me and I got these really bad cramps that were worse when I layed on my right side looking back on it. The had me in tears and curling into a ball. Anyway I still had cramping today and couldn't shake the feeling sometign was wrong so I went in. They gave me an U/S and the good news is there is one baby, the heart rate was at 172, and the baby measured a week farther then I thought I was. The bad new is there is a bleed and the placenta had ripped some, which I'm sure is what I felt yesterday. So now I'm on pelvic rest and bed rest. I see my Dr on Weds and find out then what he wants to do from here.

I still have really bad all day sickness though and I feel good about this pregnancy too so time will tell what will happen. I really just want a baby no matter what. I had someone ask me today what I would do if I had another boy and that seemed like the oddest question to me. I had no idea how to answer it other then to shrug and tell them we already lost a boy so it doesn't really matter to me. I don't even want to find out what we are having which everyone thinks is so weird. I just can't bring myself to hope for a girl when all I want is to finally have a healthy baby after everything I've been through.

Here's hoping I cna get my doppler to work soon so I can know that this little one is ok.